Clever

I cleverly crafted you into a hangman's noose,
And then I went and hung myself-
It's not your fault that I'm so clever;
Industrious even, at ruining my life
Because you were only doing what comes naturally
And nobody told me to pay attention,
Get my heart all trampled and sore
By someone who outclasses me,
By the mere act of taking in oxygen.
But humiliation is a tough chew
And revulsion is a heady scent:
I have hopes of survival now,
Though it will never be pretty again;
This still being alive-
When once I had hopes that
Finding myself beneath your notice,
I might just go ahead and die.